The noise of the metal caving upon impact with the concrete was deafening. Doors flying, glass shattering, Nicky was ejected. Pronounced dead on the scene, no one saw it coming. Nicky was a one-of-a-kind soul. At her memorial it was obvious that her radiant spirit and unfailing love of others were features people were drawn to. She had a purpose for life and joyful spirit that not many others express.
I believe that it’s not death that most people are afraid of. Rather, most people fear getting to the end of their life to realize that they never truly lived. We live in a world of “kindas” so to speak. There are people who “kinda” want to get straight A’s or who “kinda” want to change the world, but there are very few people who actually set out to do that. Now I may not know much, but I know that each one of us was born with a gift. Our Heavenly Father knit each person in their mother’s womb to have a purpose. To me, Nicky was someone who knew this. She believed in loving everyone and she made an impact not only to me, but to every person she met.
After Nicky’s sudden passing I no longer wanted to live in my menial routine. I realized that my days are limited and I too should live every moment purposefully. Society has created a fear in so many people to be like everyone else. Too often people spend every waking hour trying to fit a mold instead of truly living. I walk through the street and see people snapping a selfie or taking the “perfect” picture to put on social media. It breaks my heart to know that instead of being in the moment we are drawn to an electronic screen. Don’t get me wrong, social media isn’t bad, but it’s how and when we choose to use it that confines us to normality.
As a child I had a fear of public speaking, but after Nicky’s passing I realized that we don’t have time to live in fear. Therefore, last February I stepped out of my comfort zone and spoke to over 600 people about finding joy in the little things and living with a purpose. Nicky had a passionate soul and dedicated her life to letting others know how loved they were. In my speech I talked about living a life dedicated to our passions and said “it is that passion that can drive us to move mountains”.
We all live in different ways. Whether we feel alive by helping others or traveling the world, people often find their reason to live in the oddest places. Nicky lived because she wanted others to feel loved. Living is a choice that everyone has to make. It is a conscious decision each morning to wake up and fulfill the plans the Lord has for you. I have chosen to direct my life in a manner that I believe is worthy of His calling.
I don’t know why bad things happen to good people or why they leave us too soon, but I believe that everything happens for a reason. I have only begun to see how Nicky’s accident has made an impact on the world, but I know that when Nicky died, I no longer saw the world with the same perspective. I realize the delicacy of life and the value of living every moment with genuine intentions. Life without meaning is no way to live. It’s your choice – will you find your purpose to live?